So the last 3 and 1/2 monthes it feels like i’ve been ripped up, chewed up and spit out then put back together. I stopped talking to the closest person I had. It was hard but I know God put it in me to do it. Maybe it was not the best way to do it but I just ran with it. I never thought it was even possible to do this. We’ve been talking forever. The first week went by fast, and was not as hard as I thought. As weeks went on it got harder and harder! I started talking to my other friend about it and he said push on. I trusted him and respected him so I did what he said.

In this time I was broken. It was one of my lowest points. I am a lively person who loves life and it felt like this situation had taken the life out of me sometimes. In this time God met me. I started reading my bible, journaling and doing a lot of things I should have been doing for a while. It gave me just enough energy to get through this. My days felt long and boring. I didnt want to do anything anymore.

Once I really started to trust God and hand my life to him things became clearer and clearer to me. One day in the middle of worship something happened that has never happened before… I heard God. He told me to talk to my friend and pray with her. I fought him as long as I could before it was just to overwhelming. I was so nervous… I walked over tapped her on the shoulder and said, “Would you pray with me?” She nodded and we walked back and talked to a leader for a while. We then talked and parted our ways for the day. It was so much easier than I thought it would be.

I almost imediately felt the pressure being taken off my shoulders. It was incredible. We hung out the next day catching up on things and finally seeing her mom, who is one of the most amazing people ever.

In the end I realized, she is one of the most amazing people I know. God needed to break me and move me and even though it was not the same for her she still in the end stuck with me and by my side. She was understanding and got where I was at.

I am now closer to God and have my best friend back. Things may be a little different but I am excited to see what kind of work God is going to do with our friendship between us and to see where God will use us to bring people to God. I hope I can be a beacon for God whereever I am.

Yeah I mess up… more than I should but I am trying. I thank God for what he has done. I also thank the friend who let me back when she could have turned her shoulder. It was huge. (Btw if you never came over to the car I would have never went in. So thank you!)