"Matthew 6:33-34 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
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I am Taylor. Im going to be a freshman in high school. I live in Mass right outside of Boston. I love my church youth group. Its amazing. Jesus is my lord savior and best friend. I try to follow God's plan for me as best i can but it doesnt always work out. Again i am a teenage boy but we'll see...
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Lately I have been feeling so lost… I dont know where my life is leading and what I should be doing with it. God help please!
So the last 3 and 1/2 monthes it feels like i’ve been ripped up, chewed up and spit out then put back together. I stopped talking to the closest person I had. It was hard but I know God put it in me to do it. Maybe it was not the best way to do it but I just ran with it. I never thought it was even possible to do this. We’ve been talking forever. The first week went by fast, and was not as hard as I thought. As weeks went on it got harder and harder! I started talking to my other friend about it and he said push on. I trusted him and respected him so I did what he said.
In this time I was broken. It was one of my lowest points. I am a lively person who loves life and it felt like this situation had taken the life out of me sometimes. In this time God met me. I started reading my bible, journaling and doing a lot of things I should have been doing for a while. It gave me just enough energy to get through this. My days felt long and boring. I didnt want to do anything anymore.
Once I really started to trust God and hand my life to him things became clearer and clearer to me. One day in the middle of worship something happened that has never happened before… I heard God. He told me to talk to my friend and pray with her. I fought him as long as I could before it was just to overwhelming. I was so nervous… I walked over tapped her on the shoulder and said, “Would you pray with me?” She nodded and we walked back and talked to a leader for a while. We then talked and parted our ways for the day. It was so much easier than I thought it would be.
I almost imediately felt the pressure being taken off my shoulders. It was incredible. We hung out the next day catching up on things and finally seeing her mom, who is one of the most amazing people ever.
In the end I realized, she is one of the most amazing people I know. God needed to break me and move me and even though it was not the same for her she still in the end stuck with me and by my side. She was understanding and got where I was at.
I am now closer to God and have my best friend back. Things may be a little different but I am excited to see what kind of work God is going to do with our friendship between us and to see where God will use us to bring people to God. I hope I can be a beacon for God whereever I am.
Yeah I mess up… more than I should but I am trying. I thank God for what he has done. I also thank the friend who let me back when she could have turned her shoulder. It was huge. (Btw if you never came over to the car I would have never went in. So thank you!)
D.C
I cant wait to leave tomorroe for D.C. It is gonna be amazing! I am scared. I’ve never done anything like this before. But i know God wants me to go and i am going to be what God needs me to be. If i can get to a comp i will update you but if not you’ll have to wait a week. Im so excited!
Tomorrow im getting a chance to hang out with one of my youth leaders/youth pastor. I love hanging out with him. He is just a nice person and is real. I know he is busy and could be doing better things than hanging out with me and it means a LOT that he would.
Were probably gonna stop by the comic book store too. Its gonne be fun. But again, i am just so thankful i have a person like him in my life. I know i can trust him and he has always been open with me.
Im not sure if i have to call no homo or not though… But it is a bromance. So im not really sure.
Drama free couple of days!
I went camping in New Hampshire for a few days with an “epic set of people”. I went with my best friend Taylor and his family and Ned, Joe Mac and Joey Finn. It was nice to get away for a few days and just hang out and have fun. We did a lot of nothing we just sat around and talked and listened to Taylor Swift. It was a drama free two days and it was fun!
I also had some fun with the boys… I did their make-up. They got some eye liner, eye shadow, blush and some lip stick that was a brownish purple color. Then we went out into public with them like that! One guy looked like he was going to kill them but it was really funny.
Ned is now know as Natalie or Anita
Joe Mac is now know as Josephina
Taylor is not know as Tatiana
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This was an awesome time. I had so much fun! I laughed so hard. Even after the canoe. (If that is how you spell it.) I cant wait to do it again!!!!
I have seen “The Matrix” a thousand times and still learn stuff as i watch it. You may not think it but the movie is SO deep. I dont think you can ever fully understand this movie. It makes you think… Is the chicken i taste the same as yours? How can i be sure my brain interprets sound like your does? Is the red i see the blue you see? Maybe our brains decode the messages given to it for sound, sight, or touch differently. That would mean the world to me and you is very different. Maybe what i see and what you see is not the same. Maybe it is all part of a plan God has for each of us. Maybe it is not. Maybe i am an idiot and take a movie way to seriously. The movie just makes me think about everything. You question the world your in. But even the next time i watch it i will pick up on something i didnt before…
This picture made me laugh so i posted it.
Last week we had a sermon on friendship in our youth group. I have really been thinking about it lately. Its been on my mind… We long to be loved. People look for relationships because God made us so that we can love. Adam was lonely, so God made Eve. But we also need friendships. We need a friend that can know our deepest secrets. People need someone to go through life with, somone they can trust. Because you cant tell everyone everything. There is some stuff that you think no one can know. But, i think we need to get it off our chest and have someone who can talk with you about it. I have a friend like that and would not trade it for anything. I dont know where im going with this but its what i’ve been thinking.
